Angst and Randon Thoughts

Pronunciation: 'ä[ng](k)st, 'a[ng](k)st
Function: noun
Etymology: Danish & German; Danish, from German
: a feeling of anxiety, apprehension, or insecurity

The holiday season is bad, bad, bad and evil, evil, evil. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy being able to see the nieces, nephews, and other assorted relatives. But, without my girlfriend, I wouldn't be seeing any relatives.

After five years of being welcomed and loved by her family, I am still waiting for the other shoe to drop. I know that I am being unreasonable. Her family really tries to make me feel like one of their own.

How long does it take to get over almost 21 years if rejection?

When do the nightmares stop?

I feel most alone in a room full of family and friends.

NaNo has been defeated with 52,109 words and counting.

The hardest, most reliable workers are the least noticed of all.

Random thoughts are sometimes the most honest.

Show Me the Science

This post brought to you by boredom and my kids' homework. I had to look up the links for them, so I might as well share. Aren't I nice?

National Geographic: Forces of Nature

Cassini-Huygens: Mission to Mars

NASA: Solar System Exploration

Traditions of the Sun: Ancient Astronomy

Extreme Science

Do Science: Science Tricks, Experiments, and Activities

Spiral

It starts as just a point. A beginning. Curving and growing just slightly larger until it returns to pass the original point. Each try is futile.

Peculiararities

Salmon-flavored soda-The turkey and gravy soda wasn't enough last year?

Alcohol in a nursing home-

When Uncle Sam sends you your paycheck
For most things you don't mind
But when your pains start aching
Standing in a medication line
Well, rejoice you have a voice
If you're concerned about Alzheimer's and athritis
In this retirement home
It's called the Nursing Home Honky-Tonk Bar Association

Need a motorcycle? Go to prison-I'd change the ignition first thing.

Serendipity

A few years ago, my girlfriend lost both of her grandparents. It was a hard time made worse by various other goings-on. Long to short, her grandparents had raised her and she was very close to them. In their last days, the local hospice and I took care of them.

My girlfriend's grandmother was an avid reader with the home library to match. Custom books shelves lined the walls with shelves made the perfect height for paperbacks with some the right height for hardcovers. Thousands of books just waiting to be read, each embossed with her name. I still turn green thinking of that library.

I helped with the estate afterwards. It took four people days to box up all of those wonderful books. The family decided to donate them to the local hospice's thrift store. I had never once seen any of her books in there.

Recently, I went in to look around. Some scrubs, knitting needles, and various other items were in my arms when I stopped to pick up a book. It seemed interesting, so I took it up the register. It wasn't until I had finished reading the book that I noticed her seal on the title page.

So, PBW, that is the strangest thing that I have found in a book.

Confused

Nano Total: 21,602

How the hell am I getting this many words? It's just not like me. Who wants to bet that I have one heckuvalotta editting to do once this is over?

P.S. I promise to have a better post by tomorrow afternoon. Really, those aren't my fingers crossed behind my back.

Happy Birthday, Marine Corps

My gf wrote a rant that brought tears to my eyes. I hope that everyone takes at least a few minutes this holiday weekend to thank all of those who are protecting our freedom.

WTF?

How the hell is this coming about?

5537 words so far this weekend.

I hope they make sense when I'm done. Scary stuff coming from me.

Decency

Whatever happened to good-old-fashioned decency? There will be no linking the the entities that are pissing me off. Copyrighted material is copyrighted for a reason. My words are mine.

The forms, web pages, novels, short stories, knit patterns, etc. that I create are mine. If I say that you can use them for free, go right ahead. But, unless that permission is is explicitly granted, don't touch.

I will also be boycotting.

P.S. 2,064 words today. And I thought this would be one of the hardest scenes.

Rollin'

800 on Day 1.

Whoops. That was the 31st dangitall.

403 on Day 1.

Now, I'm rolling with 1500 so far. But, I must quit and sleep soon.

By the way, I'm handwriting this. On the 30th I will start typing in while I make minor edits. Masochistic, yes. Helpful? I'm hoping.

Genre

There are starting to be too many different genres. It's not just SF, fantasy, romance, historical, non-fic, literary, etc.

Going to a bookstore is starting to feel dirty. Instead of muzak, they should be playing Bow Chicka Bow Bow. The only other media I can think of that subdivides so much is porn. Think about it. How many genres can you think of that are pornish sounding?

Hard SF
Erotica
Gay
Lesbian
Asian
African American

Just a thought. Anywhosits, I only got about 800 yesterday. We'll see how today goes.